Friday, September 3, 2010

IS IT THAT EASY TO LET IT GO.....

MOVE ON… This is what people generally say to the person who is going through a bad time. “MOVE ON, THAT WAS PAST... LET IT GO AND THINK ABOUT FUTURE…” It’s so easy for those people to say who have never gone through it. But do they really understand what that person must be really going through. Holding on to some special and beautiful memories can be really painful at times.

 
It’s more miserable when you are confused about what you feel and you are not able to explain it to anyone… EVEN TO YOURSELF… You are not sure what you want to do with those memories… Forget them or keep them in some corner of your heart..?? And you keep on asking to yourself “WAS THAT GOOD, WAS THAT BAD...? WAS IT WORTH THAT MUCH…?” And at the end you come up with absolutely no answers…


During this time you really need some one who can be with you and help you. But what if that person is really far from you and there no ways you can be together. It becomes even more painful. You are simply not able to concentrate on any thing and keep on getting more and more vulnerable to those feelings. Days become simply miserable. Your mind keeps on saying “LET IT GO!!” and your heart saying “BUT IT’S NOT THAT EASY DUDE!!”
One day u decide to kill all that feelings inside you and promise to yourself never falling into it ever again. But the other day u wake up finding yourself at the same cross roads. Keeping that fake smile and pretending to move on, but that pain keeps on eating u inside and you are not able to show it to any one. You are full of mixed emotions- LOVE, HATE, CONFUSION, HAPPY, SAD… All together it’s simply frustrating.
 
Saying "I dont care anymore.." and the other moment saying "You do care, you stupid !!". Stopping for a while and seeing around, you realise there are so many great things, but then it seems so incomplete. You keep on trying to fill that empty space by various things, but unsuccessful...
 
People around you are happy, trying to make you happy and smile... But everything seems so worthless with that incomplteness in your life. They say whatever happens, happens for a good reason. But you find absolutely nothing thats good about this pain.
 
YOU FEEL LIKE GOING TO SOME HILL TOP, CRYING YOUR HEART AND SAYING "WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO LET IT GO..??"


3 comments:

  1. OH GOD!!!! The end should have been on a positive note! :-X

    Well I know I can't understand what you are going through but, I can say just one thing, Leave it and move on to some bigger and better things. Easily said than done, but not impossible though :)
    I am optimistic. :}
    Cheer up girl!
    Great post! Keep coming!

    Regards,

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  2. Nice post.Hope you move on with it.......

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  3. @tanvi: thnx and am trying alot 2 be more positive...
    @surabhi: thnx, btw dats d only hope am living wid.. :|

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